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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Some ramblings....

Sometimes on days like today's I really feel like giving up everything and just going somewhere where nobody knows me and forget everything of my life so far... (but just feel that way...I wouldn't give up!) ... I feel so down today... lately I have been trying so hard to deal with everything and it never comes out the way I'd like it to be... I hate it when it happens like that... I am feeling so exhausted... today I totally blew out both of my practices... I swam terribly.... even my coach was wondering what was wrong with me... tell you the truth even I have been wondering lately.... I had some sprints and I hardly did them, the coach even made me swim two sprints less than I was supposed to... I tried so hard but it still came out terrible, even my head started hurting from the effort I made... I don't know why everything is going so wrong... the coach said that two weeks before the competition I will stop the weightlifting before the second practice and that I will swim not more than a mile and a half... that almost made me cry... I looooooooooooove practicing... it is lik emy favorite part of the day... Today while I was swimming all I wanted was to get out of the pool and go somewhere and be alone... I thought how sometimes I really feel like giving up on everything but my next thought was that I have had way harder moments and that I sticked up for so long...why would I quit on everything NOW! If I give up now...the last couple years would be just a big waste of time... and I am not a quitter... so I will have to pull it through again! Hope I will find the strength again...

1 comment:

Милена said...

Hey, hey! Ups and Downs! Eberything happens for a reason and to teach you a lesson you need to know. If the lesson repeats over and over again, then you didn't learn it well. Try harder. All this fatigue must be telling you something, really! Ask your Body!