Live like a candle which burns itself but gives light to others

      I've been sitting here all day reading... I had a little surgery yesterday and lost a little more blood than    planned so today I am forced to sit like an old old lady tired from life doing absolutely nothing! So as usual I am contemplating on life and the way we are supposed to live it...

Three days ago my grandma also had a surgery and I left her in the hospital. On the other day I was supposed to pick her up and drive her home...but in the evening I received the bad news that i was also going to have a surgery...and actually a couple surgeries... so I wasn't in the best mood... I'd say I am mentally strong but I always need that time just for myself to suffer the pain alone so I can overcome it and then move on...

I could not get any sleep the whole night. I felt so tired and confused I did not even wanna go and pick up my grandma from the hospital in the morning...I was thinking up some ways to ask somebody else to do it instead of me...

And then I felt so selfish... was I gonna get better if I stayed home, feeling hopeless and sad? Sure I wouldn't! But if I had not gone to pick up my granny she would probably be sad... so I decided I was going to neglect my selfpitty and try to make somebody else happy.

I went early in the morning, bought a rose for her on the way to the hospital. I left the flower in the car and went inside to take my grandma's stuff. She seemed kind of sad. I was sad myself but I tried to smile so she could feel better. We went to the car and I opened the door for her...and there was a big red rose waiting for her...my granny's face was shining...she was so happy. She laughed the whole way home and obviously forgot about the pain she was feeling...

...and guess what? That made my day too! So now there were two sad souls that were now shining...and what was the cost of it? Just a red rose... :)

My point is that people do not need a lot to be happy...it is the little things that make our life meaningfull and whole...

And when you are about to make the decision to feel sorry for yourself or make somebody's else day better....just go ahead and light up their life...you will be brightened by their light too... :)))